Hi. I’m bethany, 16.

If you’ve looked at my blog, you’ll have learned more about me than people who’ve known me for years. 

Fast background of my life, I’ve been depressed since I was 6 years old, and have struggled with self-hate since then, and it’s just getting worse. My dad was abusive growing up, and it just got worse through the years. In December of 2010 I lost my two bestfriends, and that is when I started to want to commit suicide. I cut for the first time on May 26th 2011, my new bestfriend who is still my absolute bestfriend (that i had a crush on) ignored me at my exbestfriends graduation and I was just a mess. And ever since I have been cutting. And since then I have developed an eating disorder, anxiety disorder and I’m very suicidal. I’ve been molested multiple times, once by a very good friend and I never thought I’d be okay again, and I’m still fighting to be happy. But I try to help other people to distract myself from my own problems.

I am very much in love, and I’m not afraid to tell people. He is the best person in the world and I am so blessed to have him in my life. I couldn’t imagine having anyone else, or wanting anyone else. He’s just.. ah. amazing and he’s my best friend :) He is the ray of light in my life and someone who is helping me through everything. I’m so grateful for him.

I’ve been hurt more than people have realized, and I’ve kept people in my life I should have gotten rid of because they would constantly hurt me but I couldn’t. And that’s probably one of my biggest regrets. 

And most importantly, I am a Christian, I won’t force you to be a Christian too, so don’t think I will. I’ve hid it for too long and I want everyone to know.

I am here for anyone, I don’t care if you’re gay or straight, or any race I will do my absolute best to love and help you. So please feel free to message me anytime, I promise, I don’t judge anyone.

Stay Strong, and I love you :)